Dear cosmic friends,
This past week I was playing with the concept of sexuality and black money. Weird pair? Hear me out…
Sexual energy is responsible for creation, birthing something or someone. Prosperity has two facets – white money and black money. White money is created through conscientious real efforts that result in gains. Black money is through colonizing what someone already has, whether it’s through pillaging someone’s idea or through manipulation. When you do any of the above the karmic consequences will align you to a mercy of where you end up with the shorter end of the stick – something gets taken away or a financial block/obstacle appears from nowhere all of a sudden. I myself and a few people I know had this occur at the same time receiving the warning about black money through our recent session of Ayahuasca.
I myself uncovered some dark sexual trauma that resurfaced which has taken its toll and time to process and heal through. I noticed that disassociating had become something that I just did without thinking about. But when you keep getting lost in disassociation it keeps you in the frequency of rage and anger and fogs the planning and execution of future long-term goals. I tried to distract myself with pretty much anything I could than face my sexual trauma that was covered in shame. But I had to change the way I looked at things. There’s nothing wrong with me. What was done to me was wrong and not my fault. The reason I bring my past up is because it has a huge effect on my resistance to generating more money and actually containing it. Until I don’t take my control/power back my trauma response will be running the entire show by default.
To help ease and heal my trauma, shock and pain I decided to take the Sexual Healing Course by Teal Swan which I highly recommend to anyone who wants to redesign their life purely on their own terms. Commiting to this process of a healing journey helps you reset and know what the real you likes, not the traumatized, scared, boundary violated version of you has been used to. And suddenly as if by magic when your old awareness dissolves a new you emerges who doesn’t self-sabotage anymore merely just to get by because of your previously damaged self-worth. You are worthy no matter what.
This week our team were struggling to get Paypal working in harmony and so we branched out to other banks in Cambodia to help us receive payments seamlessly from international clients. But at the same time we had to take courage and not rely on ‘black money’ (energetically tainted money) by going through loops to get our needs met. So I leave you with this thought…are our intentions always pure when wanting to make it or are we riding off of someone else’s back and hard work and calling it our own?
Have a blessed week,
Raksmey